The beginner in meditation – what I have experienced / Prophylactic self-isolation series. Day 320th.

In my previous post about meditation Any progress in meditation practice? / Prophylactic self-isolation series. Day 299th. In that post I wrote about my achievements (my first book published) after I started meditation practice. The post also tells about for whom meditation withstand a prayer, why practicing meditation seems so hard?, clear instruction for the basics of meditation and about some tips for meditation practice.

Today it is time to share the real experience. How the meditation looks like? What one may feel and how it affects the whole day after?

Once I read how to break the bonds and go deep into myself on page 56 of the book “Becoming Supernatural” by Dr. Joe Dispenza – I entered a new world of meditation, or better to say, a new world of myself. Now the morning meditation is a joy and pleasure, in fact, a necessity to feel well for the entire day.

All my meditations took place on a balcony, or inside the room with balcony door open – to get as much fresh air as it is possible.

What is in my head during meditation?

day time	emotional and mental experience
5 am / 40 min / strong wind	First time I went so far, after the barrier of 30-35 min it starts – I felt I belong to myself, there was nothing else, just my universe. It was the connection with someone else who brought me something. I feel I cannot tell about it even in my post, this secret belongs to me. The feeling and experience were exciting, I literally was waiting for the next day to continue and to experience it again
5 am / 52 min / rainy	just sitting, do not remember how it was exactly, but the previous experience did not came again. I tried, I sit there with eyes closed but nothing…As I latter understood, during the first time it was the real moment, not a consequence of meditation itself. That is why it cannot be repeated. Well, after this meditation it seems I was so clear in mind that my poor brain forced me to swallow all the missing emotions during the day after, as if to unexperienced guy eating all and everything after a short fast.
6 am / 20 min	the phase of dealing with thoughts about past and future things. Legs start to numb around this time
6 am / 32 min	the phase of dealing with thoughts about past and future things
6 am / 30 min	the phase of dealing with thoughts about past and future things
7 am / 52 min / calm sunny morning	I am calm, somewhere in my mind. I am in my thoughts, but concentrating on the root chakra. Suddenly it appeared that it has responded. Golden rots screw through forming a reverse triangle and going down to the center of the root chakra. Yes, after this meditation I realized, the first experience will never repeat, as well as this one, because it is not a kind of product of the meditation, it is a real experience during meditation, i.e. during the connection with myself.
6 am / 20 min	the phase of dealing with thoughts about past and future things
6 am / 33 min	the phase of dealing with thoughts about past and future things
5 am / 53 min	I was already there, in deep myself, when something has happened. This stopped me from going to meditation for a few weeks till I restore my feelings. Again, what has happened will stay with me, I will explain it in more detail below the table.
6 am / 30 min	just sitting, relaxing, thoughts are going all rounds
5 am / 44 min	already there, but decided to open the eyes
6 am / 20 min	just sitting, relaxing, thoughts are going all rounds
5 am / 47 min	I just rested. Everything I was confused about – I forgot. I also forgot all the brilliant thoughts I wanted to write for my reader on WordPress. So, it is not worth thinking thoughts during the meditation – all goes back to cosmos once you open the eyes, even if you try to keep the thought in a head.

Further, 30, 10, 10, 20, 20, 30, 30 min meditations have followed.

Why no more long-lasting meditations?

I am just waiting for the morning when I will wake up early, around 4-5 am. As these weeks I am inspired by cold, walking in cold air, running in cold air – this activity relaxes the body so deeply that I sleep longer, till 6 am. Well, it is already too late for good meditation – the surrounding must be a Silence, still sleeping, even a bird should not disturb the silent secret of early morning before sunrise…

Why not to share some experience with no-one?

because…as our lecturer of pharmacology has told: “There is a special way seeking to overdose specific type of pills, cause it does not work in a manner “more – better effect”, but I will not tell you how to overdose properly”.
What now I see in books and online, is that people who really understand and took time to experience things deeper, who are experts in specific areas, – they share everything, absolutely everything.

And then, one day someone reads it and turns contrarily – the chaos appears. I mean the Knowledge may become the guide and lifebelt or the same Knowledge may become a weapon against the Life.

One of the example may be seen in the American movie “The Men Who Stare at Goats”. Well, the trailer of the movie does not go deep on what it is really about. The trailer may seem to show flat movie for entertainment, but the core thought is there, while watching.

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